So my family went home today. I miss them already. They're crazy and noisy as hell. But that's what makes them fun. My room is now so quiet. And so awkwardly clean. During the past few weeks, we've all been sleeping together in my room. I fall asleep every night hearing everyone's different snores. Tonight, I go to bed without any snoring to listen to. My house feels ten times bigger and emptier and I feel like I can't be alone at home. Now that I'm no longer a student, it means I'll be working. And as a working adult, I cannot afford to go back to Singapore every winter/summer holiday. I wish my dreams, ambitions, career path and family could all live in harmony together in the same country. But unfortunately, it just isn't possible. Just thinking about it makes me sad. So I don't want to talk about it.
For now, I think I need some time to slowly adjust to life again without my dad, mum and sister around. I need to stay positive.
Stay safe, and I'll be back soon.
x
I used to cry all the car journey home when I left my Family after the Holidays. After a few days all will be Well x You are very Brave for sharing :)
ReplyDeletethat must be so hard... take care!
ReplyDeleteAww, Dawn, I know how you feel. I just came back from LA, where most of my family lives. I spent a few days surrounded by cousins, aunts, and uncles, and every day was always filled with lots of joking around, chatting, and eating.
ReplyDeleteThe first night I got back home, it felt so empty and quiet in my apartment, it was almost unbearable. I just take comfort in the fact that if I ever need a place to stay, or people to lean on, I always have my family in California. Even though they're not with me physically, knowing that I have that emotional and familial tie is great comfort to me.
Take care, Dawn!
We may be miles apart but you are always deep at our heart and with God's blessing all will be fine.Take good care we all love you dearly.
ReplyDeletethat was papa -.-
ReplyDeletehello dawn you have a beautiful family. i have loved seeing the photos you've shared. your family must be so proud of you with your kindness and amazing talents. i imagine its hard for them too when you all part to different places in the world. thinking of you and hope each day it gets easier. you are lucky darren is still on holidays. enjoy your time with him before he returns. x evie
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